To all the wonderful/smart/beautiful/strong/funny/caring/sweet ladies. You are just that. Don't look back at what you didn't do, or what you forgot to do. Look at what you did do. AND if you stumble upon a regret look at it as a learning experience! You can not go back and fix it. All you can do is apologize and push forward! Many (((hugs))) to all of you. Go out and make it count today.


This is my face book status today. AND I MEAN EVERY WORD.

Sometimes in life we spend so much time looking at the past that we can't even imagine the future.

Sure there are times where you say...FML! Some of us have said it more than others. All we can do is go back say we are sorry to the people we hurt. Then push forward. You will continue to fall on your face. If you didn't then you wouldn't be living life you would be merely existing. Be creative. Impact some one's life. Let someone know that you have been there and you survived.

Know this that somewhere in this world someone loves you. You may not know it. Someone cares about you. Now if you could only reach the point of feeling that way about yourself. You have one shot it this...make it count.

Today I woke up with my back hurting. AGAIN. Actually it hurts every morning that I don't work out. So this morning it was worse. UGH!

I got up and stretched. Which is so much fun when you don't want to be up right! LOL! I went to get dressed and skipped over my normal jeans and shirt and sandal. Instead I opted for my pink sweat and one of my husbands skull T-shirts (sorry Rick I promise to return it!) and my sneakers. Walked in to the bathroom didn't even bother to pick up a hair brush and pulled my hair up in a messy bun brushed my teeth and got out of there! Skipped my espresso and mixed my crystal lite and put of eggs on to hard boil.

Got my 2 oldest off to school. I got my eggs cooling. Time to work out. I will do this. I lost my determination for a little bit. I just have to keep pushing. I have to remind my self of what I know...I KNOW that if I don't I will hurt every morning. I KNOW my kids will be picked on for having a fat mum. I KNOW I won't be happy until I can run and play. I just need to make it fun again and RIGHT now I am feeling the need to rock out. So music up loud....and elliptical is the way I am going today!........

***btw the picture is obviously me. I want to take a new one every month so I can see just how I am changing! ***

Shed mommy

It feels like this dark cloud has been blown away lately! Which is awesome!

The weekend was the best! We played outside with the kids and did a movie night on Friday! The kids had so much fun. It makes everything worth it when they smile. EVERY.SINGLE. bad thing melts away! So we all cuddled up on the floor with the kids and had a "picnic" with them while we watched a movie. They were so tired from playing that NO ONE complained about bed time! Which then in return gave Rick and I time to watch a very kick ass movie!!!

Saturday was pretty similar...with the exception of the trip to the eye doctor for me. *surprise* I need glasses...ugh...I feel old LOL. Who knew 28 is old!?!?! Got home and was pleasantly surprised that Rick had the house clean,kids fed,dressed and out side playing while he was doing the yard work! NOT an easy feat with 5 kids all under 10!

Sunday was AWESOME! I never got to go to any concerts while I was a teen or anything like that. SSSssoooo my husband took me to see my favorite band Blue October. It was nice to shed mommy for the night and just rock out to fantastic music with my husband.

Which brings me to this. Sometimes as a mother,weather you are a mom of one or many, you lose yourself somewhere along the way. You find that you prefer sweats and pony tails. Shaved legs are thing of the past...if you get to brush your teeth you are lucky. Here is the thing. It is hard being a mom. It is hard to find balance.

When you don't want to get dressed and brush your teeth and you just feel like you are running on a constant loop. This is the start of depression for most mothers. The next thing is rage...you find yourself losing your F*cking mind. You get this rage, it feels like you are burning from within. Your get angry about shoes not put away, you scream about teeth not being brushed. Next you lose your self esteem. You don't even know why you bother. You are now spiraling. Grasping for some sort of control and you can't find it. Get help. Don't listen to every mother feels this way it will pass. Do you want to feel like that every day? Go directly to your doctor. BUT don't stop there. Talk to someone, someone that is capable of helping you....This brings me back full loop to....


SHED MOMMY SOMETIMES!!!! Reach down find yourself. Love yourself. Get up everyday and know that your children will be happier if you are happier. Your husband will be happier if you are happier. You get one shot at this life and do you want to waste it on losing it about where shoes are left laying?

National No Housework Day!

WOOHOO! I think I just found my favorite day of the year! April 7th is national no housework day! ....

BUT guess what......

I didn't find this out until my house was clean.( insert big eyes and quivering lip here) So I when I did find this out, I decided to take it easy for the rest of the day! I was super stoked. I had plans of laying out side and reading a book, while my kids played happily in the yard.

*ding dong* Hi I am your reality check!

Leland crawled into a mud puddle FULLY dressed. Ruthie fell down the front steps. Charlee was upset the tooth fairy forgot to visit. Ricky had a stomach ache. My dog slipped out of his collar and ran away. AND I still needed to work out...Breath in, breath out..

Ok with 5 kids I am not able to celebrate this day to it's full potential.

So instead I decided to play on facebook for 45 mins. That way I at least did my part on this very special day.

I still need to work out. I am hoping to get to the gym....I mean...I WILL get to the gym!

We had omelets for breakfast.

Lunch we had pizza. I honestly had just 2 pieces (which is still one too many)

No soda just water.

Dinner we are having chicken something.

Some days you just have to get through. Some days you don't fully enjoy. I know that tomorrow will be better! Because I am going to make it better!