A Life Change.

Ok so I have told you a little bit or a lotta bit about my back ground! So here is somethings that I have been working on!

So after putting on ALOT of weight. I started worrying about things "normal" people wouldn't think about. Like will I fit comfortably in a theater seat? Will my kids get picked on because of me....So I started looking at the issue square in the face. My first diet attempt was Atkins, I dropped 15 lbs. in one week! But slowly failed. So it was fad dieting....UGH! Yeah I fell into that pit.

I didn't see anything but my weight. It wasn't until recently that I realized that it wasn't a diet I was looking for. It was a life CHANGE that I was after. That is a really scary thing. I was no longer looking at losing weight as much as getting healthier. THAT is the ticket. It isn't something I am doing just to lose weight, it is something I am doing to feel better. ( I mean being fat physically hurts!) It is a challenge. I think it will be a challenge for the rest of my life.

SSOoooo at my heaviest....(this is so hard to say) I was 270lbs.(on my 5'2 frame) That was 4 weeks after my son was born. So that was almost 2 years ago.

My first step was to work out for 30 min every single day, no matter how much I didn't want to. So I enlist the help of my VERY BEST friend Beth. She agreed to meet with me here at home every day around 9 am. We did "on demand" workouts.....how many of you have comcast and NEVER noticed the Sports and fitness category? I KNOW RIGHT! Anyway there are days we sit and talk and avoid it and avoid it until one of us gets up and pushes start. She pushes me to keep going, if Beth is still going then so am I!! I love seeing her and she makes me laugh and have fun so working out is not such a pain. <3 We have been doing this since November. And I still LOVE it. I feel so much better after we work out! I am off antidepressants! WooHoo for that!!! Who would have thought that all I need to feel better was to move my body!! I have more energy. I am just all around happier.

My second step was to join Curves. I was so scared and nervous. Until another Beth came into my life. She is the manager there. I talked with her and before we weighed and measured me. She told me about how she used to weight 250lbs. She decided when her daughter turn 7 to do something about it. She showed me pictures and it made me feel like she understood me completely. It also gave me hope. She is like the size of my thigh now!! So we weighed and measured me....I hated it....the very last number was the hardest to swallow...my BMI was 47%. I realized I HAVE to do something about this right now or some how, some way my weight was going to shorten or worse end my life.

Well that is it for now. I am hoping to get you all caught up with where I was, what I have done, and what I am doing daily to defeat my own worst enemy...myself. If you want to share any of your stories please feel free to comment on anything!